shit

Shit day

Shit week

Shit month

Shit year (ish)

Shit life

Ben, Ben, Ben, I need to tell you something so I am going to put this message on every single account you own in hopes of getting it to you. I hope you are getting better, I love you, and I need to tell you something.

My god I rock

PLEASE!!!

Sorry, been so busy working.
I AM DIEING WITHOUT THESE SONGS BY KATE NASH
PLEASE HELP ME FIND THEM
BEN!
Home is Where the Heart is / Dirt
Old Dances
Habanera
So Much Older
Take 'Em Back (erroneously printed as "Take 'Em Out")
Look What You've Done (Lethal Bizzle ft. Kate Nash)
Me & My Microphone (Kano ft. Kate Nash)
Rainy Days (The Derelict Projekt ft. Kate Nash)
Covers:
Fluorescent Adolescent (Arctic Monkeys) (I kind of know where to get this one)
Hang Me Up to Dry (Cold War Kids)
I'm Not Gonna Teach Your Boyfriend How To Dance With You (Black Kids)
Hound Dog (Elvis)
Irreplaceable (Beyoncé)
Men's Needs (The Cribs)

The kidneys didn't de-frost in time.

Carolynne came over today.
She gets to sleep downstairs,
with the xbox 360
and the TV
and stereo
and VHS and DVD player
and the two old computers
and her family's old couches.
I GOT MY RED PAINTINGS TICKET TODAY
YAAAAAAAAAAAAY
I'm still annoyed that Carolynne didn't like my
One day at your school one day at mine idea.
Which is poo-ey
Because mum liked it.
And said we could.
Bum you Carolynne.

Sunday

Went bra shopping.
They are very nice.
I want to show someone
anyone
but that would be wierd
Watched Gilmore Girls
Did school work
the end
Carolynne is coming Monday night
oh and I found a bag that I am in love with

Saturday

Work:
1 customer phone call
2 hands of nails re-painted
3 fruit mince pies mysteriously disappeared <_<
4 sinks full of dishes got washed
5 plates/cups got broken
6 expletives were said

After:
Gra picked me up
We went to liquor land to get my uncle Peter a birthday present.
I got the wheelchair out of the car
I got my grandma out of the car
I got my grandma into the chair
I got the chair into the shop
I got the bottle of whisky
I got the keg of Heineken
I got the credit cards out or the bag
I got the credit cards into the bag
I got the chair out of the shop
I got my grandma into the car
I got the chair into the car.
I got the keg into the car
I got the whiskey into the car.

Kittens:
CUTE CUTE CUTE
I WANT THE TABBY

Friday

I had a headache.
I felt like shit.
Then I was forced to take a photo with me and my shitty sick/school hair next to Bethany with her blue dress make up and hair still done (for grad dinner).
Then they made me go to Chermside again for schoolies shopping.
So I was cranky.
And Julian wanted to wipe his mince blood hands on my uniform.
So I got angry at him.
Then I ate my milo cerial.

Thursday

Boring.
Except for me telling people what Bethany said about me going to her graduation dinner.
I didn't actually go.
But she said;
"I don't want you there ruining MY special night."
=O
"You wouldn't want me there for yours and if you did you'd have to pay for the ticket."
Bitch.
Lots of other people thought it was mean too


OH OH I REMEMBER
Thursday late night shopping.
KT, Bronte and Francis.
Then Garry and Garry's friend Ben (who Francis has dibs on)
Francis ate my wassabi.
Then stole my frozen coke. (pink fanta flavour)
Then they tried to drag me into supre (eww)
But I got away.
Then when we all bent down at the same time to get our bags and they sort of crowded around me
I fell over.

Wednesday

feels like ages ago.
umm what happened Wednesday?
Oh, we had bethany's graduation mass.
It was long
and boring
and went forever.
Then in english dad called.
Now,
dad never EVER calls me at school
or during school hours
hardly ever even on a school day.
So naturally I got worried.
That something with Lynne had happened
Or mum
Or grandma
Or gra
Or oma.
And Bethany has just gotten her licience.
I started crying.
Then stopped.
Then dad texted me saying "prank me I need to talk to you"
So I get even more worried.
I ask ms. D if I can go call him because I was REALLY worried.
A few seconds before she had told me I had to do my oral next though.
So I am on the phone crying to my dad asking what is wrong.
"Lynne and Joe are going over seas for a few days and they want to know if its ok with us that Carolynne stays with us for about 10 days. But I wanted to make sure it was ok with you first because you're the one that is going to be affected by it with your exams and all."
"Yes sure dad it's fine."
"Are you crying?"
"OF COURSE I'M CRYING! DO YOU KNOW HOW WORRIED I GOT? "CALL ME" WHAT WAS I SUPPOSED TO THINK?"
"I'm sorry what do you want me to do next time?"
"Say it's not bad or something."
"Ok sorry."
"I have to go do my oral now, bye"
"...Alright bye"
Then Ms. D came out to see if I was ok.
I told her what had happened and she told me to go wash my face and see if I was ok to do my oral.
I came back and she made me do it the bitch.
Don't know how I went yet.

The Fall

For about a week my friend Alex and I have been planning.
We planned that the next day five in the cycle
(our school cycle goes from day 1 - 6 because Sister doesn't like Monday classes to always be missed out or something, it's confusing.)
But we planned that we would both fall into the pool in our uniforms.
I would fall and pull Alex with me.
But at the last minute she didn't want to.
So I went and got changed into my uniform after swimming
and purposely left my goggles on the side of the pool.
I went and got Alex (she didn't swim) and we "went to get them"
I was walking back really close to the edge,
and she "accidentally" lost her footing a bit and pushed me in.
Lots of people laughed.
I did.
I got out and Alex went to reception to get me a dry uniform.
And I went to the toilets to try and dry my underwear.
It didn't really work (I had to change into my togs while I tried to dry my underwear)
So I was told to put the uniform over my wet togs (getting that uniform wet too)
and take my clothes to the home economics rooms to put in the dryer.
By Morning Tea (it happened in first period)
EVERYONE knew.
It was hilarious.
Only a few people know it was on purpose.
One of them is in my PC.
And she almost told my PC teacher but I hit her.


In other news.
Art today.
The skanks again.
One of them said "argh you're so gay Hailey"
So I said "You shouldn't use gay in a negative connotation. When you say something is gay your saying it is bad which means that your using gay as bad, meaning gay = bad and therefor you are not socially accepting homosexual people."
*Blank stairs* "Are you gay"
*Condescending look* "Yes....."
*Open mouths*
"No you idiots god."

It was way better in maths though.
When fat Hailey asked me about Alex pushing me in the pool.
"Who pushed you in the pool?"
"Alex."
"Is she your friend?"
"Yes."
"Are you sure."
"Yes, so you can't go up and make rumours that she stole my boyfriend and pushed me in the pool or anything."
*Bitchy look*
I got high fives for that.

I also made comments to Rosie all art lesson about things the skanks were saying.
It was funny.

Life Sucks

Today was going to be a happy post.
But it's not anymore.
Why it was going to be happy:
OMG OMGOMGOMGOGMGOMGGOMGGOM
YAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYA
WE HAVE AN XBOX 360 YAYAYAYAYAYA
BETHANY BOUGHT IT FOR JULIAN FOR CHRISTMAS AND BIRTHDAY
AND ITS GOING TO LIVE AT OUR HOUSE.
YAYAYAYAYAY

But then,
I overhead mum on the phone to dad.
Bitching about how she doesn't need/want an xbox
we already don't spend enough time together
blah blah blah
AHH ONCE JULIAN BUYS MORE CONTROLLERS WE WILL ALL BE PLAYING TOGETHER
"Bethany didn't even ask me she just said 'I'm doing this'"
NO SHE DIDN'T SHE ASKED YOU MONTHS AGO
SHE ASKED IF IT WAS OK
AND YOU TURN AROUND AND SAY ITS NOT
WHAT THE FUCK MUM
WHAT THE FUCKING FUCK
JESUS!

Oh btw Ben,
lots and lots of people have heard you sing now.
The responses have ranged from "OMFG HE'S SO GOOD"
To " OMG aaaaaaaaaawwwww he sung for you?"
And then,
the best response,
Was Nicole.
She is totally getto :P
any who,
she went psycho
and she is like,
never psycho
not in the way she was today.
She was like
"OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOH MY GOD!
OH MY GOD
HE'S SO FUCKING GOOD
SHIT
I'm going to make Zed (her boyfriend [went to my primary school]) go to England and get an accent.
OMG HES SO GOOD"

So yeah,
Feel good.
I'm going to go see if they have the xbox set up yet
YAY HALO 3!

GAH STAB STAB

I just finished making the site for Teencast
and
then
I decied to google it
and there is another Teencast podcast
AHHHH
NOT FAIR
NOT HAPPY JAN











all well
I didn't like the name that much anyway

Friday Night Fever

Bethany finished school,
the lucky bitch.
So she had 6 of her friends over for a sleepover.
Celine’s sister Camille didn’t come.
Her and Bethany have had a huge fight.
And we don’t know what it was about.
But apparently it was bad.
Any who,
I was included in the sleepover (YAY)
And from the time everyone arrived.
To about 2 in the morning.
We played Singstar.
I’m surprisingly good at it.
I was made to go to bed at 12 though.
Because I had work this morning.
We went out to coldrock for ice cream too.
Ashley got a take home thing for the price of a large.
Because she was served by the guy there.
We all suspect he was turned on by her sunburn.
I ate lunch downstairs with them.
And then mum came and told me I had to do my work.
And they all laughed at me.
And rubbed it in my face that they didn’t have to.
Not fair.
I have 3 assignments due next week.
And 3 the week after that.
Then the week after that I have 4 exams.
Then the week after that I have a few months of holidays.
YAY!

UPDATE: Apparently it was something Bethany did,
not said to Camille.
That worries me.
Alot

Today

Mum has finished all her surgery now.
She is fine.
Today at morning tea we has a debate.
Georgina said that if her child is deformed in any way;
Is missing an arm,
Has down syndrome,
that she is going to have an abortion.
Shannon and I are talking again because we both agreed that what Georgina said and thinks is sickening and disgusting.
Georgina even talked about how her mother had seen a child being aborted.
and how they just had to wait for it to stop breathing
and it sort of just shivered for a while.
And it's eyes were weird.
She laughed while telling us.
I almost vomited.
And I almost cried.
She said she would abort because she would want her child to have a full life.
But then I made the point that isn't a life without an arm,
Or some sort of condition,
Better than no life at all?
And then she was saying how they couldn't get proper jobs and everything.
It was awful to listen to.

Oh, and we've moved from outside the old tennis courts (which is going to be built over) to a really nice spot with another table near the auditoriums.
Hopefully the year 11's won't kick us out.

Yesterday (Today) - School

I had a debate with the skanks in art.
It was about adopting vs birthing.
My point was, why not bring up a child that is already in the world,
and give it a better life.
Rather than have a child of your own,
that will just bring more spoilt children into a dying world.
"But don't you want to be a mother?"
"Can't you still be a mother of another baby?"
"Yeah but."
I had lots of fun doing that because I've already decided that yes,
It would be better to adopt,
but I do want to have my own child.

Everything else yesterday was crap.

Today - School

Will tell later
Bethany wants to leave by 7 tomorrow,
bitch,
so yeah,
sleep

Today - Morning

Bethany and Julian went to Maccas for breakfast.
They brought me back hotcakes and a hash brown.
My hands smell like syrup.
Mum is going in to surgery today.
Bethany is driving me to the bus stop.
Lynne is going in to have her first chemo treatment.
I didn't do my Science homework.
And I don't think my offline messages worked >_>
and if they did work, I didn't get a reply <_<
If there was a reply >_>
It's been a bad week.
I have to finish getting ready now.

Yesterday - Megan

Megan was so fucking annoying yesterday.
She is all "depressed" because the guy she is "in love with" talks to me more than her.
"Anthony so likes you Julia."
"No."
"You'd make such a cute couple."
"Megan, I have a boyfriend."
"Oh yeah, your CYBER-boyfriend"
"Fuck you."
"Just because all the guys you know you've never met doesn't mean you have to be jealous of me........AHH IT'S NOT FAIR, WHY DOES ANTHONY LIKE YOU!"
"He does not."
"Yeah I think he likes this girl Maddie, but she has a boyfriend. She's really pretty. AHH I'm so ugly! It's not fair Julia, you're so pretty and Anthony likes you, with his hot emo hair and fake shirt and orange connies."
"I'm not pretty, he doesn't like me, and yes, his hair is hot, his shirt was funny, and his shoes are cool."
That pretty much just kept going over those things.
Then on the bus.
"God I hate you Julia, it's not fair."
So on and so forth.
Then she ate half my quiche.

Yesterday - the car crash

Ok so,
Bethany was driving us to school,
And we had just dropped mum off at work,
I was in the front seat, (left hand side over here)
Bethany indicated to change lanes,
When she started turning,
This lady just kept going,
and crashed into us.
There isn't too much damage,
Just a bit of a dent and a scratch.
But it kind of freaked us out,
Even more so when Bethany was thinking to herself a few seconds before
"Gee it would be really bad if I had an accident."
So yes, that's what happened.
Oh and no, I didn't get hurt.
No one did.

Quickie

I was in a car accident.
Tell more later.
Bed time.
Bye.

Death is Depressing.

Today I found out from Anthony that this guy he knows from school committed suicide yesterday.
And then a few hours later Celine told me that Harry's friend Jack committed suicide that day.
I'm pretty sure that they both went to the same school too.
Because both Harry and Anthony go to Nudgee (our brother school [eww])
How utterly depressing.

Rest in Peace Jack and Navneet.
Rest in Peace.
I hope that you are both now in a better place.

Oh and I'm worried about Harry,
Because this would be really hard for him,
he's my friend,
and he himself has cut.

Why can't they just leave me alone?

I had the worst art lesson ever today.
Rosie spoke too loudly.
"Did you talk to Ben on the weekend?" - Rosie
"Kind of" - Me (this is where the bitch/skank/whores sitting at out table chime in)
"Is this your boyfriend overseas?" - Hailey W.
"Doesn't he live in England" - Hailey R.
*My facial expression is basically saying "FUCK FUCK FUCK"*
*Rosie whispering very loudly and everyone ends up hearing* "How do THEY know"
*Me back quietly* "I don't fucking know, apparently EVERYONE knows."
"That was kind of loud Rosie" - Rebbecca (one of the skanks)
*Under her breath* "Fuck" - Rosie

Later she said sorry, a lot.
So that was good.
Then when I told Celine she was like.
"But they are so nice."
NICE MY FUCKING ASS!
The whole reason they did that was to
a) Be nosy
b) Put me on the spot
c) make me uncomfortable
d) Judge me (not that I care what they think the fact that they do it is annoying)
e) to be bitches
f) to piss me off
g) to watch me squirm
and lots more stuff
*cough*
So Celine wasn't being reasonable
Yeah they are nice to her
that doesn't mean they aren't bitches.

So I went to talk to Georgina and Alison
and they were more understanding.
Then we talked about sock tans (Alison and I don't have one, G does)
And how visible our veins are (G's are scarily visible its almost like her skin is transparent. Then mine are kinda visible and Alison's are the least visible)
Then we talked about our feet (which involved taking off our shoes and saying how much we hate our feet and that Alison's toes are long)

Oh and Ben,
Georgina was very VERY embarrassed about her singing.
Then even more when she realised that it wasn't just the audio.
And hit me in the arm.

In Home Ec Kelly was being a controlling bitch.
And she was talking about Fiona and I,
And you could hear her,
It was funny
At least Fiona and I have the decency to type our bitching out to each other.
Then Fiona and I were looking up recipes.
And for our assignment it has to be "An Auzzie BBQ"
And we were looking at a site with Auzzie slang
and we were shocked.
So now I say.
av-a-go-yer bloody perving off-siding ocker. Pull your head in, nick off, piss off, rack off and go become a garbo or truckie, you're a no-hoper, even with the Salvos help, get off the dole. I'm fair-dinkum randy about rooting that bonza shiela. I'm gonna av-a barbie with bangers are mash. Her brothers a true blue surfie bloke so it should be a bottler. I'm gonna take a chock-a-block cask, some coldies, cheerios, a chook, some lamingtons and a pav for tucker and av-a good session. I took a sickie from yakka cos I was crook, but the tall poppy syndrom boss grizzled and spat the dummie. I told him to give us a fair go but he is an up himself wowser and thought I was wagging and threw a wobbly. I've had my yacking strine s'arvo ay?

Ok, I'm done.
God that was hard.
I used an Ozzie slang thing for it too. http://www.aussie-info.com/identity/language/
Though somethings that you apparently don't know are just ridiculous.
Btw. ITS A DOONA NOT A DUVET
Kay.
I'm done.

Oh no I'm not.
I have a story.
But you must first watch this.


Alright.
so today in English
my teacher (who I hate with a passion)
is going through a slide show
we get to some pictures that we are supposed to deconstruct
there is one, depicting "education" and its from dead poet society
I put my hand up quickly
"Ms. D have you seen Dead Poet's society?"
"Yes I have"
So I stand up on my chair (I didn't have a desk)
and say "Oh captain my captain!"
She laughs and claps
and the rest of my class is going
WHAT THE FUCK JULIA
and I am there grinning
and then she asks us to deconstruct it
My hand goes up again
"The lighting is warm and inviting, He looks like he is enjoying his work and smiling, all the boys are intently focused on him and there is a globe in the background" (and only after did I think to add, they are truly seizing the day)
It was awesome.
NOW GO WATCH THE REST OF DEAD POET SOCIETY.
Because it is one of the best movies ever and one of my all time favourites.

And now I am done.
God that was long.
And I say fuck too much.
BED TIME!

OH and my friend Dale who is practically my older brother might be getting kicked out of his parents house.
Joy.

*cough*

My cough is now flemmy
and my throat is really sore.

Ringing.

The phone is ringing.
I'm not allowed to answer it.
<_<
>_>
Bum.

Sick.

So today my nose is runny,
and I have bad sinus.
My nose is literally dripped.
It was sick.
I feel like a safe,
Or something really heavy,
has dropped on my head.

Apparently Fiona said that Jordan was a paedophile
Not Ben.
God this is pissing me off and so confusing.
Whatever
I will just be friends with all backstabbing bitches
because truthfully I can't be arsed to do anything else.

random.poem.one.

I write how I think,
Disjointed.
Messy.
Confused.

No standing on balconies plzkthxbai

Shared lunch tomorrow because its the year 12's last day of actual school
then its exam block
then my sister goes on schoolies
I dont want her to die
so hopefully she wont take drugs (purposefully or accidentally)
Wont drink too much
and wont stand on balconies

Shit

I just realised that its three more years
Not two,
Fuck

Bye Bitch, Die Bitch

Ok,
So, basically,
I hate Fiona.
There is logical reasoning behind this.
So let me start at the beginning.
But first I need to get something out…………
………………………………………………………………………….
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHhhhhhhhhhhhHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHAAAAAAAAAAAaaaaaaaaaaaaaAAAAAAAAAAA *STAB STAB STAB*

Right, so
Fiona was my friend,
She had been in my core class last year and at the beginning of this year but she got moved. So she was now only in my Home Ec class. She and I were tight. I had told her about Ben because it just came up and I trusted her.
We talked about her coming to London with me, and about how she would make crude but hilarious jokes about Big Ben.
No problems there.

Any way,
I hate her because,
I stayed home sick today, I almost vomited in the car.
I got a call from Heather at about 7:30pm.
Its then that she tells me that she was talking to Angelique about deviantART and Fiona chimes in with a
“That’s where Julia met Ben right?”
Heather says “Yeah” In a don’t-go-there-ok kind of tone, which of course Fiona ignores.
And goes on to say,
“I reckon he’s a paedophile”
Heather wanted to bash her.
Now, ok, it doesn’t seem so bad right?
But its so horrible because Fiona was the one that I trusted the most after Celine and Heather.
She was my friend,
She was the most likely to come with me so she could see Harry again.
She was the one that comforted me when people made fun about this whole thing.
She was the one who stood by me and told me to ignore the things they said.
How can I trust her after this?

Whatever,
Bye Bitch, Die Bitch.
Hope that slutty attitude of yours gets you pregnant.

My life sucks right now.
This has been the worst week ever.
My group is in the middle of splitting up (I don’t have a problem with who we are getting rid of but its still stressful)
Fiona is stabbing me in the back,
Mum’s going into surgery next Wednesday,
Bethany is finishing school and going to schoolies (please don’t let her die)
I can’t be a bitch to Fiona without A) looking insane for being angry for no reason or B) getting Heather in trouble for telling me.

525 600 minutes x 2
That’s all there is,
I can live through that right?

Sport

PE.
Yes,
We all hate it,
Well, st least those human of us do.
At my school they make you do it in year 8 and 9.
Not too bad.
But I hate it,
Really really hate it.
Today is going to be my first swimming lesson for the semester.
Joy, summer, but that is for another time.
My first lesson would have been last week,
But I made an excuse.
I haven't participated in one PE lesson all term
In fact,
I think I only did 2 the term before.
And half the lessons in semester 1.
I hate this.